When you try to hold back your tears but they eventually fall, and you try to hold your breath so the pain could stop briefly… You’re hurt, but you don’t want to talk about it. You don’t even want any body to know what you are going through. You laugh with so much power , but deep inside you are too lonely, you are breaking down.
When you are trying to think about the beautiful memories and suddenly you feel suffocated and you can’t breathe like you are under water… The more you think positive, the more you feel bad about your status. You become so confused, you are torn between holding on and letting go. You deny that you have been expecting and you are trying to feel content but can not win the battle. You are, in any other angle, on the losing end.
When you are feeling weak and you can not put your head up because you pity yourself because you have given more than enough and you are left with shattered feelings… This, thus becomes your turning point to dust yourself off and wipe the tears that never seem to end, but then you realize your courage is not enough to let you stand tall, again.